कभी उलझता सा
कभी सुलझता सा
कभी बिगड़ता सा
कभी संवरता सा
जाने ये वक़्त क्यूं मुझसे
आंख मिलचोली करता सा
कभी बचपन का
कभी लड़खपन का
जाने क्या क्या रंग दिखता सा
कभी हाथ में मेरे
कभी हाथों से परे
अपनी अहमियत दिखता सा
कभी चलता हवा की गति
कभी धीमी धीमी नदी सा बहता
मैं दौड़ता हूँ पकड़ने को जब भी
मेरे हाथों से ओझल होता
ऐसा ये वक़्त
A romantic love story of a man passionate of his dreams , followed dreams persuasively and while on go with nuances of life as they follow in common man’s life come across a girl having lots of confusions about her life with no direction where to head on. Its a heart bouncing story with lots of ups and downs with unusual circumstances causing upsets in their life due to problems in others lives. Deep , Intense , Pain but still they find heaven when locked into each others arms.
He is debutante in field of best writers without knowledge of how to begin. Its just an try to follow one of his other dream to be a writer. The words has to begun yet and to be penned down by the writer and sooner or later will hit into the market.
ख़्वाबों में से एक ऐसा मेरा ख़्वाब
शिददत जैसा मेरा वो ख़्वाब
जीने का सबब उम्मीद का बांध
देखूं रोज़ तो नींद है आती
तकिये जैसा मेरा वो ख़्वाब
कभी हँसता हुआ कभी मायूस
फिर भी खिलता
हिम्मत जैसा मेरा वो ख़्वाब
कभी मिलों दूर
कभी बिल्कुल पास
मंजिल जैसा मेरा वो ख़्वाब
कभी राहों में जूझता
कभी गिरता पड़ता सा
आम ज़िन्दगी सा मेरा वो ख़्वाब
इनायत कहो या उसे इबादात
मोहहबत जैसा मेरा वो ख़्वाब
सूरज सा तेज़
चाँद सा चंचल
दिन रात जैसा मेरा वो ख़्वाब
नींद से जागूं
या नीँद में मिल जाऊं
रगों में दौड़ता मेरा वो ख़्वाब
ज़िन्दगी हो जिसमें शरू
मौत पे भी ना ख़त्म हो
रूह जैसा मेरा वो ख़्वाब
Read a beautiful note on the mentioned subject. It’s more often in closed minded society where the definition of Guilt, Shame, Anger and Regret is taken in worst meaning of them.
Is human perfect in doing everything really not we are driven by emotions which can vary time to time. Had everything done correctly without any mistakes by humans things would have been simple. Who is decider of your life , you by yourself or almighty god or few people around you who will talk because they do not have any purpose in life other than to talk about.
Feel the guilt if you physically abuse someone or taken life of someone . Are mental guilts above than one’s life.
Guilts are surely retrospective of what you do with someone but often brought in life as barrier to live rather to challenge oneself to stand up. Are people around you social guard to check how to live or not .
Guilts are not trauma to happiness infact it shows the purity of heart bcoz a pure heart will only feel the guilt but infact it’s certainly moved in that direction which makes a person living without purpose because we feel answerable to feud mentality society around us or so called fake culture.
Life is god gifted and it must be loved and one should know how to love oneself no matter what the condition is because time and destiny are unseen terms and noone is unaware what’s gone happen next moment. So live the moment who knows is there any 3rd world after death. Pass the compassion and live with least expectations .
It’s a place of multiple events for some it is place to take holy dip on festive occasions and for others they take dip after doings rights for their lost ones.
Today on the day of Bhai Dujj festival least expected though it was huge rush. It came to my mind two days back that it has been long I have not taken holy dip in river ganga. We all left around 10.30 am from rishikesh for haridwar someone will surely ask I could have gone to take bath in river Ganges at rishikesh why haridwar but sometimes one becomes pure Orthodox and take those steps which commonly done by people.
In short after taking dip it gave a religious feeling as if some heaviness went through mind or it was needed to do something reverse. Chants of har har gange by every person taking the dip was making worthiness of the place that why people come from various parts of country and world to see haridwar and city all around.
Unplanned in a one way but worth having dip in holy ganga today feeling relaxed and blessed. One remembered my late brother as I did his rights after death here only.
There is some invisible power in the Ganges water that one really feel that he has come not to take bath but to express realy emotional feelings for the people one has lost in pursue this life. Nowhere you get this feeling except at this place although Ganges flow at different cities and places.
After very long time almost after 9 years it was feeling which came to.mind in 1 day and got fulfilled.
One must atleast come in year for tranquility of mind and maligness in the hearts to take dip in holy river which is truly divine
Day headed to meet few friends once again. Rupak, sharad, anoop and I . It was long time after I saw rupak and so as Rupak & Sharad. We made one close friend today Anoop. And the moment we sat all 10 yrs back talks were around . Anoop was listener today as it was his first get together with us but such a patient guy who listened to our sense and non sense talk and I am sure now more people will join in future. I was relishing the same young hemant who use to be sales oerson. We had rounds of beers and more than beer it was the talks which was on top . Taste of china place were sharad and rupak use to gather for customer meetings and even the waiter who 10 yrs before was a service guy now became captain.
After dinner we went for paan and it was first time for me to see night life of CP and fire paan my first instance made me feel yes life in delhi is something else which I never had impression. Thanks to sharad , rupak and anoop to make it happen.
Life beyond business and competition is different where we shared experiences rather that business.
Words are getting short as I am trying to recollect every single nuance but still we missed many people and main part is though they were absent we still remembered. Despite each one of had priorities but the time we enjoyed today we can only mesmerise and lock into memories.
Who knows where we will be in future but the time we captured today was awesome. And for me specially meeting every friend is giving me nostalgia and making me to live life out of business life once again.
दहक जाता हूँ
कुदरत के दस्तूर देख कर
अपनो को अपने से कभी दूर देख कर
तू बूढ़ी हो चुकी आंखें कमज़ोर
नाही बदला है जो
वो तेरा रोज़ मेरा ही इंतेज़ार
खौल उठता हूँ देख कर तेरी आँखों में आंसू
दर्द केहरा जाता है तेरे दर्द को देख कर
खुदा ने भी नायाब ही बनाया तुझे माँ
मेरी सिसकियों को कोसों दूर पहचान लेती है
अपने को भूखा रख मुझे परोस देती हैं
नही मालूम की तेरे कितने कर्ज़ है मुझ पर
एक उम्र और मिल जाये दुआ करता हूँ हरदम
वक़्त किसका कब रहता है
वक़्त ही तो में मांग लेता हूँ दुआ मैं
तेरे कर्ज़ में ही गुज़र जाए मेरी ज़िंदगी
हर दरवाज़े पे सर झुका लेता हूँ मैं
कांप उठता हूँ जब तू राज़ छुपा लेती है
अपने दर्द को अपनी हँसी में छुपा लेती है
क्या सोच के नाम माँ दिया है उस खुदा ने
मुरत में ममता दिल में सागर दिया है।
वक़्त रुकेगा नही ना ही मेरी शिददत तेरे लिए
लगा तोह खुदा से लड़ जाऊंगा तुझे फिर माँ कहने के लिए
मेरा रोम रोम कर्ज़दार है तेरा
मेरी तो माँ भी तू जगदम्बा भी नाम है तेरा
When romantic thoughts comes to anyone’s mind person thinks of moving around deodhar trees and expert the surrounding air. One such thought came to my mind that I must have one home of mine near Nainital where I can spend my leisure time .It started 4 years back when one odd day I received a email to have villa or flat in Bhowali near Nainital. I just opened the email and picturesque in that mesmerizing. And I called the person name sanjay pathak to my office discuss about the project without thinking from where I will get the money as the situation was ok ok that time due to new entrepreneurship still I gave courage and momentum to my mind that this is something which is making me to drive crazy.
The guy came and we discussed the project in Bhowali. Someone I was on business trip to pant nagar, almora so I thought of passing by the project site. And when I saw the Bhowali project I made up my mind that whatsoever it may happen I will save some money to get this dream done. And the guy asked me to stay to an another project near Bhowali called amritpur and he said that I will forgot Bhowali after seeing the serenity of the place.
I and my colleague went to place called amritpur it took us while after finishing busy customer day . Body was tired with 400 odd km driving . Food and bed was the only thing in mind . Somehow we reached around 8 pm to place called Natureville , amritpur. A couple of finished villas and 10% finished apartment site was only there but place was such mind cooling one that the villa we stayed changed my mind to change flat booked from Bhowali to amritpur in one stance after looking the place and it’s surroundings.
We left next morning back to delhi and I was thrilled that I found something which can always give me hideout in a year. And place one can settle after retirement.
It took 4 years of many rounds of discussion of leaving the project and gaininh trust on sanjay pathak as I told him that this project is my dream and passion which I put in anything was the thing letting me stay in the project.
And today after 4 years I got registration of the project . It gave me mixed feelings of joy and sadness that I have to work for another 9 more years to finally live the life of leisure and peace where I will be on my own. It will take another 6-8 months for flats to get fully functional but villas have been occupied with few families and they are enjoying the serenity. Almost little mobile signals and silent nights with sounds of river flowing on the downside of project place.
Viewside from the flat is no doubt another relaxing factor with fully furnished apartment with all amenities in the package gives right option to buy if someone interested live actual life in mountain. Infrastructure given by builder do have difference bcoz it tells story of government giving uncomfortable access on roads as of now but still for old age people who don’t want to live life in cities this is something really make sense.
I have attached some pics just to tell people of you dream something whole universe starts making it happen and today I am convinced once again by this quote from Paula cohelo. As I believed on it many times and still see that this quote make sense atleast to me.