Ankhiyon Ke Jharokhe Se

There is always one song in everyone’s life which gives you jitters as well as peace whenever music and words hit ears. One such song , movie, actors , direction and music has always given me feeling of 7th heaven . The song was sung by great legendary singer hemlata ji and every single word of song mesmerises me. I have not understood till date whenever I listen this song , I keeping on repeating it till the point my emotions are off from the song. Though its hard to keep myself off but everything reaches to its saturation.

The most resembling part is this movie was launched near to my birth year . It’s surely a coincidence. And if you watch acting of sachin and ranjeeta they have made it so meticulous and remembering movie of all time.

Based on Eric Sthal Novel this movie has been really carved well. When remake of this movie also came the feeling was same ans watching sachin & ranjeeta gave goosebumps.

Music by ravindra jain has always been very melodious and it touches the heart reason being words and music culmination is always crafted well.

And when you listen this song it talks of life so simply that everyone fall back into memory lane and one start remembering the crushes or failed or passed love story.

These days music director have completely corrupted the music industry and it’s melody. Voice modulations and recording has so modernised that it has lost its glare.

Infact these days except SRK romantic movies are more fleshy. The real essence of love is missing in most movies. Filmmakers have become businessmen rather than producing real entertainment. If one watches this movies , it tells about purity and commitment in love.

There is lot can be written about hemlata ji’s singing talent which was subsidised by great female singers. Her voice and vocal training tells that voice is god gifted , it loses lustre when more crafting is done.

Listening to old songs still giving you feeling that running around trees while song is going is not dream ,it’s a romance which can be seen the everyone’s honeymoon album.

Sitting at Tianjin airport and listening the song didn’t let me felt how the time got passed away.

Sikkim in midst of April

I boarded flight from delhi to bagdogra in end of April . Left early morning 8 am for delhi airport to be on well in time as usual. After usual check in at airport and breakfast stuff completed , waited for flight announcement for boarding. When boarding got completed , my old memory to first ever flight to Bagdogra passed through my eyes. As soon as flight took off there was no sign of bad weather but seemed pilot took off the craft very early from the runway and gave initial jitters of turbulence. Sometime later everything gone smoother and I geared on headphones to listen retro bollywood music .

Having flight food and coffee etc done soon pilot announced we are going to land in bagdogra and I turned my eyes towards window pane suddenly I saw that craft is again found itself in clouds. From there I imagined I came from weather of 37c to 23c and certainly clouds are going to hover around. But landing was safe .

Soon I came out of the craft , the airport was full with young couples came for honeymoon and lot of families came for I guess on LTC or year break out to relax a bit from tiring city life. But it was not the case for me . Well, az usual my journey was till Gangtok so stood in line of prepaid taxi to hire cab.

As it was hot outside so immediately wore my number sunglasses so that I can have both vision and save eyes from sunlight. Cab booking got done and I moved towards taxi stand along with my office colleague and driver. Outside climate was like delhi only and it took time for cab to get cool down.

In few moments cab driver took the pace and I was recollecting my memories passing through army cantonment area when I travelled first time from siliguri to Gangtok. Till siliguri , it look to me same as old except few development credit goes to communist government . After passing through cantonment area , hilly roads started off , lush green views and while we reached near kalimpong diversion it started raining. And till we reached Gangtok it was almost 7.30 pm in the night except fruits what we ate in this short journey , stomach was asking to get in fill with real food. But most mesmerising part was the rainy weather must be good for love birds to roam around and get cosy. Seems paisa vasool visit for them because tea gardens and organic state in rainy season look really beautiful.

We checked in hotel , feel damn tired just simply ordered food had it and I tuned on to the IPL match . After seeing CSK winning the game it was even big respite.

I slept early to make myself ready for the next day as I came for business trip not the leisure trip and another long day in traveling along with customer visit was on the cards.

Will continue the next day update in my next blog update on sikkim. Till then signing off with few clicks from my mobile

Immortal Love – A Short Love Story

Reshma a teenage girl walking into her adolescent mets a guy Amrit who was working as a manager in a MNC and was living two houses next to Reshama’s home. Both were single daughter and son of their respective parents. Their story began while their parents met with each other in common society function and happened to know that Amrit was going daily to same area for work where Reshama’s college was and with moment of chance Amrits’s father offered to Reshama’s parent looking into situation in NCR about women incidents that Amrit can drop and pick Reshama as and when required. Her father nodded yes without any hesitation. When both Reshma and Amrit heard about it , they had very different reaction to their parents decision but as it was decided by them so both took it as their parents orders. Except having few society meetings they never had chances to meet each other.

The first day when Amrit was waiting for Reshma , he was little nervous because he never got into such situation ever and their was equal uncomfortableness from Reshama’s end as well. Days passed by and the incidents of dropping and pick ups continued. Then happened to be chances when both of them halted for coffee breaks on their mid ways once or twice a week. And eventually they became known to each other and talks become causal to personal. Parents of both were in their own busy life and with this both families became closer to each other.

After 4-5 years later and One odd day , Reshama’s father asked during his morning walks with Amrit’s father that he is looking for a groom for his daughter so if finds a suitable boy , he can let him know. And contrary both Reshma and Amrit became so close to each other that it was ritual for them to have long talks while rides back to home. Still they both were unknown whether there was any love feeling blossoming in their hearts.

And one sudden day , Reshama’s father told her that they have selected a boy named Aadil for her and he is coming to see her in few days from England and now since she has given her final exams so it’s better she can stop going to college. At that moment there was nothing gone into her mind that her everyday pick up and stops are finally going to end up but the next day when Amrit was waiting for her , she came and told her the story. At that very moment Amrit felt a little different because someway or other it had became routine for him and all of sudden life has put a break on it.

Days passed away , Aadil came and went back to England . Both families agreed to relationship and decided marriage two months later.

In the meanwhile both Reshama and Amrit started missing their presence but none of them were still realising their inner feelings. Just few days before Amrit asked Reshma to have day out with him to relive the time they both spent together. And without thinking anything else she also got ready and that day when they were suppose to go out , Amrit started feeling there is something he is gone a miss after Reshama leaves forever to England. That turns his mind to feel why he is thinking all this at this moment of time and if he shares this feeling with Reshama he will lose talks with her and it may cause furore in her life.

As it’s said destiny has its own ways to turn the games of life. Amrit thought he will not share his feelings but will try to make the day memorable so that it’s a happy day for both of them.

Both visited different places , shopped for whole day but by the end of the day Amrit being a sikh asked Reshama will she mind if he visits Gurudwara for prayers and Reshama although a Muslim said she will come along with him as God is one. As it’s a ritual when you enter gurudwara , a girl has cover her head with scalf and with Amrit it was not a problem as he was wearing the turban already. And the very moment , he sees Reshama dressed up like that he thinks within himself if while making prayers god gives him the way to tell her feelings which he realised last day only he will tell it down to her. And when he prays his soul guides him to tell his feelings to her and the moment after prayers he shares that with Reshama , she didn’t felt aback but was in a situation what to say to Amrit for some reasons one majorly the religion and other her marriage was near around in few days. They both left and unlike any other love couples with dishearted feelings they had something different because Amrit got releived by telling her his feelings and she was in a indecisive state. That night Reshama didn’t slept and Amrit was also turning the sides. By the time sun rose Reshama felt she knows Amrit and getting married to a person is better than marrying a person whom she hardly knows. But as commonly happens in Indian society she gulped her feelings and went away to England with Aadil . In all these incidents , Amrit went into a completely state of mind that if he got true feelings during the prayers then destiny will turn up one day and made up his mind that he will not marry and if his love is true then miracle will happen that he will have life with Reshama. And while Reshama’s marriage was around he even expressed this feeling to her that she is the only girl he will like to marry and wait till god makes the miracle. So without any expectations from Reshama he began his journey which in true sense is impractical but noone knows destiny turns in which way.

Here Amrit’s parents were putting pressure on him to get settle in life but noone was aware what struck to him to get onto this decision. And there Reshama was happily settled with Aadil but somewhere she had one little thought in mind what has made one person to sacrifice his life for her Was it a obsession or they time both spent together made common thing which happened at uncommon time.

Years passed away Reshama was in her 50’s and Amrit was somewhere at age of 55. And unfortunate incident happened in one wrong understanding by police , Aadil gets hit by police firing. To cover up the story , police makes the false allegations on Aadil’s death and Reshama was deported back to India with her son and daughter. As soon as news flashed , Amrit came to know about it. And he was in state of despair equally because life will take this turn he never thought off.

When he met Reshama he was not in condition to offer even shoulder to her because he didn’t wanted to give anyone any kind of hint what feelings he was keeping for Reshama so just saying pacifying words he left from her home.

Sometime later , Police confirmed it was an accident and all charges were taken off . But till this time Reshama suffered a lot emotionally and was only living for her son & daughter. But society was trying to make different stories which is very usual and listening to rumors one day Amrit went to see Reshama and offered her to remarry but seeing the situation Reshama said her only objective is to live for her children. And soon she stopped talking to Amrit and moved back to England.

Amrit took as another destiny chances started living but now his situation from normal living became passing the life. And he also didn’t contacted Reshama back . After sometime when both son and daughter of Reshama got marriage was decided she called Amrit to attend and on the day of marriage , she said to both her children that she hided onething from them and their father that she was responsible to give reply to one decent proposal she got from her friend and due to uncommon circumstances she kept it unanswered and since the person never married again and lived his life without any expectations from her , she want to give him due credit back. So , whether they will allow her to go back to the person who loved her immensely and their relationship is immaculate.

In common situation everyone would have reverted negatively but seeing their mother’s despair and wait for Amrit they happily accepted it and both Amrit & Reshama got married one day before children’s marriage so that both of them can offer their blessings to children . Although, Amrit respected not to take place of their father but he promised to take care of their mother as he thought of in past.

Kal Ho Na Ho {Time Will Not Come Back Again}– Memories Only I Have

Life will not turn back again so I thought this time to live back life with my younger/childhood and with people who I know for long and to take their blessings.

Started my life visiting Shiva Temple in Virbhadra , then gone to my school KV IDPL Rishikesh where life from class 2nd till 10th Standard was progressed. Then visited the first home A-2595 where I recall my childhood friends and cricket playground. Still recall when my father scooter I see from a distant whole playing cricket I use to run 100 metres to reach back to my room and immediately use to grab book in my hands as if I was studying from last few hours. Recalled Vishal and Sanjeev Saxena , Saxena Uncle & Aunty, Pawan, Mannu , Reshu, Tannu.

That time every festival was joy before we shifted to C-85 by that time adolescent touched with competition to grow in life although I never compared and lived the life the way I wanted to happen.

My car roamed around all those lanes and finally today I met my schoolmate Ashu and Uncle/Aunty. Mona I missed you Sis. Meeting Ashu Parents was like meeting family . Went to Roof Top . Ashu’s daughter put water through water gun over me and that gave me feeling how we use to play holi when thay area was alive. Remember Sharma aunty , Sujata And Sangeeta Didi, Mamta Meher Uncle , Aunty. Pavitra Pragya , Kalara Uncle /Aunty. Everything was flashing like it’s only this year there is noone but next year everyone will be back and IDPL will be floroushing again.

Missed my all friends Raju, Abhishek, Rahul and many more . The walk from C-85 to Famous Ram Mandir and then to Lovely Store , finally resting down to bustand to chatting with friends about latest affairs gossip and competition exams. I guess these were the two topics when I was in 10+2 . Can’t miss visiting Raju’s home being blessed to walk inside his home freely but rest friends were scared of his father . Dhyanchand Uncle famously called DC Uncle by Rahul

Can’t miss my first tutor Ashok amd Manoj Bhaiya from where the journey about medical entrance exams started and that relation & respect is still persistent.

Finally , met papa’s one of best buddy and another family Grover Uncle & Aunty. It was surprise for aunty as she was not able to recognize me until she heard my voice. Paying visit to their home felt like I am visiting and cherishing old discussions again. I saw smile on their faces which was sort of relief and joy because any festival for parents without kids is dry.

Went through almost all lanes of IDPL with a feeling who knows when next it will be because life is full of uncertainities. And nothing more gives satisfaction meeting or seeing out places/people’s with whole childhood and adolescent grew.

After 10 long years someone put colors on me didn’t give satiated feeling but meeting all above known places and people gave me yes there was a time I lived important portion of my life with them.

I may not have played holi the way I use to play but meeting all those people and visiting places where my roots belong to has given me satisfactory feeling.

All those years passed are flashing back one by one as if I can write whole book on memories lived in IDPL.

One thing last we live life in grief and noone knows what life has store for one. Whosoever you meet in life meet with smile who knows your smile can make difference in their life. Someone told me that unless one is not happy oneself , he or she can’t make other’s happy.

One of the famous lines of Jagjit Singh/Abdul Hamid coming through my mind

” हस के बोला करो , बुलाया करो

आपका घर है आया जाया करो”

In my heart

When world was shovering their wishes yesterday, I still missed one card and one gift which Always use to get from him. Mom use to get his hands somehow to write on the Birthday card. His charming and glowing face like a True Yogi in his life and blessing me on my forehead, all those little times I spent with you till you left this world gives me always a feeling why people remembered when they are gone to that world from where return is not ever seen.

Everyone loses someone near or dear now or then in their life and life continues but there are certain relationship no matter whether life moves or not their presence is recalled and absence is heart dropping.

You were the living god for me and somewhere I am blessed wherever I am today and the hole you have left in my heart is never gonna fill. And no matter whether I reach to any summit or go down in life after yesterday , one thing which will not change will be the compassion I learnt from you. It’s difficult for many others who known you how but their is conscience or subconscious mind which connects one person to other.

I see less brotherhood among people around me but even if you would have been alive and normal like any other human being my feelings and love would have been the same.

Although, I have started seeing you in someone close to me once you left and what I wanted to do for you , I want to do for him and be his side in all his successes and failure but as it’s said souls are different and yours is the purest I seen with no dirt in it.

If there is another birth somewhere written and said Strongest Wishes Get Fulfilled what’s left this time , I will love to do again as your elder brother again. And My Wishes never go unreturn.

You were , are and going to be same for me. One of the Jewel I always miss. Voice “aa bhai” still sounds in my ears. After every travel , I imagine your presence in home.

Thinking of you makes eyes wet which means you are still alive and with us.

…….. Yogi in My Life

Hazaron Khawishe Aese ( 1000 Wishes )

Clock has clicked one more time . This time it’s 41st . After spending these many years on earth , heart & mind have coincided together on one thought that there something or nothing as such in life except the material gains and running from one corner to other. And best song which suits to the condition is

Kaisi Teri Khudgarzi
Na Dhoop Chune Na Chhaaon
Kaisi Teri Khudgarzi
Kisi Thor Tike Na Paaon (X2)
Ban Liya Apna Paigambar
Tar Liya Tu Saat Samandar
Phir Bhi Sookha Mann Ke Andar
Kyun Reh Gaya
Re Kabira Maan Jaa
Re Faqeera Maan Jaa
Aaja Tujhko Pukaare Teri Parchhaaiyan
Re Kabira Maan Ja
Re Faqeera Maan Ja
Kaisa Tu Hai Nirmohi Kaisa Harjaaiya

Last 2 hours have gone in thinking what’s their missing in life and reply came that it’s only earned not given much back to life.

God bless to let me reinvent life once back to be closer to nature and process must begun as subtraction of life will be fast from now onwards. Handful of enthusiasm will give meaning to life to the path which mind is thinking at this very moment.

No baggage of failures and pain to come in path only compassion to offer to those for whom life is most difficult meaning of survival.

May it give sight of happiness in left years of life. A win over Anger and Materialistic Possession will be real goal .

Fear Of Losing

Fear can be of any type may it be losing a peron or a possession. We come across these situations during any moment of life. Theoretical explanation or justification might say that it’s process of life but dimensions in practical life vary from person to person but in the end Life never stops it goes on. One might remain in shell of negativity or overcome the situation but in real life one has to bear it and move on.

Everyday around a person their are many incidents such that but time never say one to be happy or unhappy in a given situation.

Bhagvad Gita even says one has to continue doing or has to come in day to day work life. Attachment or denouncement is human or animals inherent emotions one cannot run away and what keeps along with the person is memories or words sometimes it gives laugh and on other time it gives sadness.

To understand dogma of life cycle sometimes give jitters when one gets surrounds with all things happening on negative side but in the end overcoming from that pressure lies in hand of individual itself.

There may be many books or write ups on how to overcome sadness after losing but in the end individual response to the situation only makes to get over it.

There is no set rules on this how to behave or react in situation when something is lost but it’s the days after day one realizes humans or animals does not have answer to it or control on it.

We may defer the happiness by ourselves but cycle of life have all colors .

Life toughest task is to be happy in difficult conditions because process of gaining or losing will go on. What matters the most is WORDS they keep one alive no matter in memories or real situations.

Real essence of life is to grab the moment as it comes , living or going away from it is individual response.

One day each person has to face the challenge of losing someone ,this is uncontrollable so make most of it the way one wants to be rather than living in past guilts or grievances. Because in the end it’s the chances we didn’t take will matter in the life.

It’s not a new topic as it’s discussed or in discussion by many people but only thing which can make one at ease is Gratitude as this will only help ones innerself at peace