यही धरातल जिसमें जन्मा तू
इसी धरा पर मिल जाएगा तू
कौन सी भक्ति में लिप्त इंसा तू
थोड़ा तो अब इंसा बन जा तू

पहाड़ों की सुंदरता ही बस बची कुछ
शहरों को काले धुओं में झोंक चुका तू
केसे बन गया इतना नर्दयी मानव
रोज़ खेलता है अपने ही घरोंदे से तू

है प्रलय का तुझे गर अब भी ज्ञात नहीं
लगा चुका पर्यावरण को प्रगति की भेंट तू
इतना नेत्रहीन तू हुए केसे मानव
मृदा को बंजर कर गया है तू

देख प्रकृति का अपना प्रलय हर तरफ
जिस चौंध के लिए बिक गया तू
एक सूक्ष्मजीव से जान बचाता मानव
अपनी कर्मों से अपना ही मुंह छुपाता तू

—- हेमन्त कोहली


रिश्तों के कुछ नाम हों

मेरे मोहहले के लिए ही सही

उन्न कुछ चुनिंदा लोगों के लिए

मेरी घुटन के कुछ नाम तो हों

है कौन वो जो मेरे होने का हक़

इतने हक़ से जताते हैं

गर उनके साथ नहीं तो

अजनबी सा चेहरा दिखा जातें हैं

मेरी साँसों को उनका कर्ज़ दिखा

रोज़ उधार सा कुछ मांग लेते हैं

ख़ुद उनका कुछ झुलस सा रहा

फ़िर मुझे ख़ाक करने का सबब क्या

कुछ दुआ सलाम के चलते

क्यों मेरा ज़ायका उनके ज़ायके सा हो

मुझे क्यूं उनके सा है जीना

जब मेरी मंज़िल का वो हिस्सा नहीं

है वो कौन जो मेरे जीने का दायरा तय करें

मुझे ख़ुदा ने नवाज़ा मेरे जीने का रास्ता

मुझसे ही तय औऱ मुझसे ही ख़त्म हो।

Ankhiyon Ke Jharokhe Se

There is always one song in everyone’s life which gives you jitters as well as peace whenever music and words hit ears. One such song , movie, actors , direction and music has always given me feeling of 7th heaven . The song was sung by great legendary singer hemlata ji and every single word of song mesmerises me. I have not understood till date whenever I listen this song , I keeping on repeating it till the point my emotions are off from the song. Though its hard to keep myself off but everything reaches to its saturation.

The most resembling part is this movie was launched near to my birth year . It’s surely a coincidence. And if you watch acting of sachin and ranjeeta they have made it so meticulous and remembering movie of all time.

Based on Eric Sthal Novel this movie has been really carved well. When remake of this movie also came the feeling was same ans watching sachin & ranjeeta gave goosebumps.

Music by ravindra jain has always been very melodious and it touches the heart reason being words and music culmination is always crafted well.

And when you listen this song it talks of life so simply that everyone fall back into memory lane and one start remembering the crushes or failed or passed love story.

These days music director have completely corrupted the music industry and it’s melody. Voice modulations and recording has so modernised that it has lost its glare.

Infact these days except SRK romantic movies are more fleshy. The real essence of love is missing in most movies. Filmmakers have become businessmen rather than producing real entertainment. If one watches this movies , it tells about purity and commitment in love.

There is lot can be written about hemlata ji’s singing talent which was subsidised by great female singers. Her voice and vocal training tells that voice is god gifted , it loses lustre when more crafting is done.

Listening to old songs still giving you feeling that running around trees while song is going is not dream ,it’s a romance which can be seen the everyone’s honeymoon album.

Sitting at Tianjin airport and listening the song didn’t let me felt how the time got passed away.

Sikkim in midst of April

I boarded flight from delhi to bagdogra in end of April . Left early morning 8 am for delhi airport to be on well in time as usual. After usual check in at airport and breakfast stuff completed , waited for flight announcement for boarding. When boarding got completed , my old memory to first ever flight to Bagdogra passed through my eyes. As soon as flight took off there was no sign of bad weather but seemed pilot took off the craft very early from the runway and gave initial jitters of turbulence. Sometime later everything gone smoother and I geared on headphones to listen retro bollywood music .

Having flight food and coffee etc done soon pilot announced we are going to land in bagdogra and I turned my eyes towards window pane suddenly I saw that craft is again found itself in clouds. From there I imagined I came from weather of 37c to 23c and certainly clouds are going to hover around. But landing was safe .

Soon I came out of the craft , the airport was full with young couples came for honeymoon and lot of families came for I guess on LTC or year break out to relax a bit from tiring city life. But it was not the case for me . Well, az usual my journey was till Gangtok so stood in line of prepaid taxi to hire cab.

As it was hot outside so immediately wore my number sunglasses so that I can have both vision and save eyes from sunlight. Cab booking got done and I moved towards taxi stand along with my office colleague and driver. Outside climate was like delhi only and it took time for cab to get cool down.

In few moments cab driver took the pace and I was recollecting my memories passing through army cantonment area when I travelled first time from siliguri to Gangtok. Till siliguri , it look to me same as old except few development credit goes to communist government . After passing through cantonment area , hilly roads started off , lush green views and while we reached near kalimpong diversion it started raining. And till we reached Gangtok it was almost 7.30 pm in the night except fruits what we ate in this short journey , stomach was asking to get in fill with real food. But most mesmerising part was the rainy weather must be good for love birds to roam around and get cosy. Seems paisa vasool visit for them because tea gardens and organic state in rainy season look really beautiful.

We checked in hotel , feel damn tired just simply ordered food had it and I tuned on to the IPL match . After seeing CSK winning the game it was even big respite.

I slept early to make myself ready for the next day as I came for business trip not the leisure trip and another long day in traveling along with customer visit was on the cards.

Will continue the next day update in my next blog update on sikkim. Till then signing off with few clicks from my mobile

Kal Ho Na Ho {Time Will Not Come Back Again}– Memories Only I Have

Life will not turn back again so I thought this time to live back life with my younger/childhood and with people who I know for long and to take their blessings.

Started my life visiting Shiva Temple in Virbhadra , then gone to my school KV IDPL Rishikesh where life from class 2nd till 10th Standard was progressed. Then visited the first home A-2595 where I recall my childhood friends and cricket playground. Still recall when my father scooter I see from a distant whole playing cricket I use to run 100 metres to reach back to my room and immediately use to grab book in my hands as if I was studying from last few hours. Recalled Vishal and Sanjeev Saxena , Saxena Uncle & Aunty, Pawan, Mannu , Reshu, Tannu.

That time every festival was joy before we shifted to C-85 by that time adolescent touched with competition to grow in life although I never compared and lived the life the way I wanted to happen.

My car roamed around all those lanes and finally today I met my schoolmate Ashu and Uncle/Aunty. Mona I missed you Sis. Meeting Ashu Parents was like meeting family . Went to Roof Top . Ashu’s daughter put water through water gun over me and that gave me feeling how we use to play holi when thay area was alive. Remember Sharma aunty , Sujata And Sangeeta Didi, Mamta Meher Uncle , Aunty. Pavitra Pragya , Kalara Uncle /Aunty. Everything was flashing like it’s only this year there is noone but next year everyone will be back and IDPL will be floroushing again.

Missed my all friends Raju, Abhishek, Rahul and many more . The walk from C-85 to Famous Ram Mandir and then to Lovely Store , finally resting down to bustand to chatting with friends about latest affairs gossip and competition exams. I guess these were the two topics when I was in 10+2 . Can’t miss visiting Raju’s home being blessed to walk inside his home freely but rest friends were scared of his father . Dhyanchand Uncle famously called DC Uncle by Rahul

Can’t miss my first tutor Ashok amd Manoj Bhaiya from where the journey about medical entrance exams started and that relation & respect is still persistent.

Finally , met papa’s one of best buddy and another family Grover Uncle & Aunty. It was surprise for aunty as she was not able to recognize me until she heard my voice. Paying visit to their home felt like I am visiting and cherishing old discussions again. I saw smile on their faces which was sort of relief and joy because any festival for parents without kids is dry.

Went through almost all lanes of IDPL with a feeling who knows when next it will be because life is full of uncertainities. And nothing more gives satisfaction meeting or seeing out places/people’s with whole childhood and adolescent grew.

After 10 long years someone put colors on me didn’t give satiated feeling but meeting all above known places and people gave me yes there was a time I lived important portion of my life with them.

I may not have played holi the way I use to play but meeting all those people and visiting places where my roots belong to has given me satisfactory feeling.

All those years passed are flashing back one by one as if I can write whole book on memories lived in IDPL.

One thing last we live life in grief and noone knows what life has store for one. Whosoever you meet in life meet with smile who knows your smile can make difference in their life. Someone told me that unless one is not happy oneself , he or she can’t make other’s happy.

One of the famous lines of Jagjit Singh/Abdul Hamid coming through my mind

” हस के बोला करो , बुलाया करो

आपका घर है आया जाया करो”

In my heart

When world was shovering their wishes yesterday, I still missed one card and one gift which Always use to get from him. Mom use to get his hands somehow to write on the Birthday card. His charming and glowing face like a True Yogi in his life and blessing me on my forehead, all those little times I spent with you till you left this world gives me always a feeling why people remembered when they are gone to that world from where return is not ever seen.

Everyone loses someone near or dear now or then in their life and life continues but there are certain relationship no matter whether life moves or not their presence is recalled and absence is heart dropping.

You were the living god for me and somewhere I am blessed wherever I am today and the hole you have left in my heart is never gonna fill. And no matter whether I reach to any summit or go down in life after yesterday , one thing which will not change will be the compassion I learnt from you. It’s difficult for many others who known you how but their is conscience or subconscious mind which connects one person to other.

I see less brotherhood among people around me but even if you would have been alive and normal like any other human being my feelings and love would have been the same.

Although, I have started seeing you in someone close to me once you left and what I wanted to do for you , I want to do for him and be his side in all his successes and failure but as it’s said souls are different and yours is the purest I seen with no dirt in it.

If there is another birth somewhere written and said Strongest Wishes Get Fulfilled what’s left this time , I will love to do again as your elder brother again. And My Wishes never go unreturn.

You were , are and going to be same for me. One of the Jewel I always miss. Voice “aa bhai” still sounds in my ears. After every travel , I imagine your presence in home.

Thinking of you makes eyes wet which means you are still alive and with us.

…….. Yogi in My Life

Hazaron Khawishe Aese ( 1000 Wishes )

Clock has clicked one more time . This time it’s 41st . After spending these many years on earth , heart & mind have coincided together on one thought that there something or nothing as such in life except the material gains and running from one corner to other. And best song which suits to the condition is

Kaisi Teri Khudgarzi
Na Dhoop Chune Na Chhaaon
Kaisi Teri Khudgarzi
Kisi Thor Tike Na Paaon (X2)
Ban Liya Apna Paigambar
Tar Liya Tu Saat Samandar
Phir Bhi Sookha Mann Ke Andar
Kyun Reh Gaya
Re Kabira Maan Jaa
Re Faqeera Maan Jaa
Aaja Tujhko Pukaare Teri Parchhaaiyan
Re Kabira Maan Ja
Re Faqeera Maan Ja
Kaisa Tu Hai Nirmohi Kaisa Harjaaiya

Last 2 hours have gone in thinking what’s their missing in life and reply came that it’s only earned not given much back to life.

God bless to let me reinvent life once back to be closer to nature and process must begun as subtraction of life will be fast from now onwards. Handful of enthusiasm will give meaning to life to the path which mind is thinking at this very moment.

No baggage of failures and pain to come in path only compassion to offer to those for whom life is most difficult meaning of survival.

May it give sight of happiness in left years of life. A win over Anger and Materialistic Possession will be real goal .

Fear Of Losing

Fear can be of any type may it be losing a peron or a possession. We come across these situations during any moment of life. Theoretical explanation or justification might say that it’s process of life but dimensions in practical life vary from person to person but in the end Life never stops it goes on. One might remain in shell of negativity or overcome the situation but in real life one has to bear it and move on.

Everyday around a person their are many incidents such that but time never say one to be happy or unhappy in a given situation.

Bhagvad Gita even says one has to continue doing or has to come in day to day work life. Attachment or denouncement is human or animals inherent emotions one cannot run away and what keeps along with the person is memories or words sometimes it gives laugh and on other time it gives sadness.

To understand dogma of life cycle sometimes give jitters when one gets surrounds with all things happening on negative side but in the end overcoming from that pressure lies in hand of individual itself.

There may be many books or write ups on how to overcome sadness after losing but in the end individual response to the situation only makes to get over it.

There is no set rules on this how to behave or react in situation when something is lost but it’s the days after day one realizes humans or animals does not have answer to it or control on it.

We may defer the happiness by ourselves but cycle of life have all colors .

Life toughest task is to be happy in difficult conditions because process of gaining or losing will go on. What matters the most is WORDS they keep one alive no matter in memories or real situations.

Real essence of life is to grab the moment as it comes , living or going away from it is individual response.

One day each person has to face the challenge of losing someone ,this is uncontrollable so make most of it the way one wants to be rather than living in past guilts or grievances. Because in the end it’s the chances we didn’t take will matter in the life.

It’s not a new topic as it’s discussed or in discussion by many people but only thing which can make one at ease is Gratitude as this will only help ones innerself at peace

India Needs Indians

Just watched 1st Episode TED Talk and again thoughts about doing or giving back something to our own country bubbled again. Being a travelled to so many countries in the world and after comparing my own country we often disregard our country in all respects whether it’s culture, society , development and education but we never realise one thing when we do comparison what’s the standing out difference between developed and developing countries people and that difference is in developed countries people have thought to do or give back to their country or if they can’t do anything atleast they don’t devalue their country infront of other countries. 

It’s not the government in all countries do everything but it’s the people of that country which do but in our case we only realise this when either we get homesick or would earned enough money for living we think of coming back to our country . 

Have we ever asked why people in developing countries specially move towards western world the only answer is to earn money and have living comfort but we never realise why can’t we get that comfort in our country because we don’t want to change our attitude to grow the country in all levels and only reason for this is we are have become selfish and scared of question ” Log Kya Kahenge” . 

We hardly look into this if we all will move towards western world our own country will become as it is and we will keep on cribbing like what we do right now. 

When I see China and India both are developing and the only difference I see people over there is Innovation and Want to improve the country by atleast following the laws. Laws has been enforced in our country as well but as a citizen we feel proud in breaking them and another major reason we only want to educate ourselves to earn more and have comfortable life. We actually don’t know what’s the real pursuit of education. 

We work in restaurants outside India and feel proud doing the same job but when similar job we do here, we think it as sin or only poor people are meant to do such job. In other words we don’t value work. With money chipping in our life Arrogance towards weaker is common thought in almost every single individual.
Like this there could be many such negative things around us and solution is not go and see the world by our money , but make our own country which indeed is rich in resources to be something so that people of other country don’t come to see poor india but real India.
I am not preacher but yes social thinking has evolved inside me that noone else is responsible except us making our country still with feud and Orthodox mentality . We have learnt to buy expensive things to show flamboyance but inside our mind we are still primitive or I can say backward.